Went to Madagascar

Oh well.. thanks to the half day that our sch declares on fri... we (some of the acjc mep-pers went to madagascar in the afternoon! -xe, jane, lyvia, qinyi and me.. the only guy who went)... oh come to think of it.. this is the first time i went out with friends for a movie!!!

The movie is very nice. very funny (in a lame way).. but one thing.. there is some educational message in it...

Backtrack a little... today is also the last day of school for our fellow resident of the ACJC music centre (brahms)... Luheng... he's going nafa... sighz.. going to miss him.. short of one person to accompany me for lunch.. short of a fellow guy mep-per... oh well.. poor Ben.. he will be the only guy in the J1 mep class since Timothy decides to drop music.. sad.. haha... oh well not that bad lar.. he still got the J2 guys (for this year at least)...

Short and sweet blog.. too tired.. type more some other time..

RJ Chamber concert just rocks man! Toon li's compositionis so cute... like some anime.. haha
Wenjin's piece is very funny... uses some melodic motive from Tchaikovsky Serenade and Dvorak's serenade for strings huh.. some find wenjin's piece too noisy.. that's why it's called Noise for strings.. haha...

Oh man.. did i say RJ chamber concert rocks? oh dear... the AC ppl will kill me.. ok let me rephrase myself... The DHS ppl from RJ chamber rocks... so proud of them.. especially Wenjin and Toon Li... and Wenjin just made DHSSE popular during the concert as he dedicates the piece to DHSSE.. haha...

Went back home with Weizhuang and Bernice... oh well.. somehow.. i feel that i am 2 different ppl in AC and in front of the DHS ppl... maybe it's because i am too attached to the DHSSE.. oh yes.. i miss DHSSE... especially those currently J2 this year.. oh well... i am not too attach to the ACJ ppl except for maybe fellow meppers and trying to be attached to AA3 ppl(oh well.. my life in AC basically revolves round the music centre.. basically spending my free periods in music centre).. hmm.. i think i am very detached from the strings ppl.. haha...

Oh well.. it's late.. cant wait to go back to dhsse and play for them and play in the DHS auditorium on 25th June...

Man-in-decline

Oh well, many things have happened during this period of time which i didnt blog...

I have began to realise that I have been a failure all these while...

People have feedback to me about how i was.. ( i appreciate it.. it makes me learn about myself more).. yes.. i realised that i am a victim of my own personality... which are listed below:

• undetermined
• low self esteem
• ill-disciplined
• ego
• self pity
• cannot accept failure
• passive
• too self cautious
• impatient
• lazy
• do things impulsively
• too dependant
• requires motivation ( oh well.. i do have motivation sometimes but it's hindered by my undetermination)
• others which i have temporary forgotten about it at this moment of time or that i was unaware of

right now.. the main characteristic of me that will cause my downfall is my lack of determination, lazy, passive, requires motivation... as what some ppl has warned me that i may get a C for music for A levels or even flung... if i continue like this...

I want to change!!! but then i need someone to push.. ( and i really mean push... or rather force... make me work).. but i guess the ultimate person to be able to push me is myself... so what if others force me to work when i am not willing...

I wonder what has caused this drastic change in me... i want my pri sch days back... oh well.. that's not the point at this moment of time.. it's time for me to consider how to improve myself...