Man-in-decline

Oh well, many things have happened during this period of time which i didnt blog...

I have began to realise that I have been a failure all these while...

People have feedback to me about how i was.. ( i appreciate it.. it makes me learn about myself more).. yes.. i realised that i am a victim of my own personality... which are listed below:

• undetermined
• low self esteem
• ill-disciplined
• ego
• self pity
• cannot accept failure
• passive
• too self cautious
• impatient
• lazy
• do things impulsively
• too dependant
• requires motivation ( oh well.. i do have motivation sometimes but it's hindered by my undetermination)
• others which i have temporary forgotten about it at this moment of time or that i was unaware of

right now.. the main characteristic of me that will cause my downfall is my lack of determination, lazy, passive, requires motivation... as what some ppl has warned me that i may get a C for music for A levels or even flung... if i continue like this...

I want to change!!! but then i need someone to push.. ( and i really mean push... or rather force... make me work).. but i guess the ultimate person to be able to push me is myself... so what if others force me to work when i am not willing...

I wonder what has caused this drastic change in me... i want my pri sch days back... oh well.. that's not the point at this moment of time.. it's time for me to consider how to improve myself...